Here I am, back at it. After not posting for a long time, I felt it was time to get back on the bandwagon with sharing my journey. As many of you know, I started this blog to share the guilt and shame I have overcome in transforming my relationship to myself.
A year ago, I was walking around in the world avoiding everyone. Keeping myself hidden from the world. A successful day was a day where I finished my work and then got to come home and hide out with some Netflix, wine and myself.
In the last six months, I have taken on the challenge of falling madly in love with myself. I have worked through many barriers and can say, I have accomplished this goal. Letting go of the guilt, shame, and anger with myself was the key to creating a healthy relationship with myself.
How does this apply to my weight loss journey? Well it all starts with accepting myself for where I am right now. This was a major battle for me. For so many years I related to myself as my body. My weight was how everyone saw me and there was no hope for anyone to love me. (Or so I thought.)
Fast forward to January 28, 2017. I went to the doctors to find out my blood pressure had hit an all time high. I was presented with the dilemma to either lose weight or go on blood pressure medication. At 26, that was not going to happen. I made the decision to start the Ideal Protein diet.
Here I am at my first weigh-in, feeling good about weighing 212 yet hating myself for letting my health get out of control. I walked out of the doctors office with my bag of foods and a whole slew of negative conversations in my head about how this would just be another failed diet.
Yesterday, I had my 5th weigh in. I nervously walked in to the appointment, praying for another loss. My coach and I talked about the nervousness and why I was dreading the weigh-in. Following the plan hasn't been a problem, I just realized I am still in the conversation of failing. While this has been a struggle sometimes, it has also been the easiest meal plan I have been on in a LONG time.
On January 28th I weighed 212 and yesterday I weighed in at 193.4. In 5 short weeks I have lost 18.6 pounds. I am at the lowest weight I can remember being at since childhood.
I am now committing myself to continuing to share my journey with the world. Letting go of the shame, guilt and hiding my past and sharing the raw and vulnerable things with each of you.
Thank you for being on this journey with me and I hope to provide a space of inspiration, authenticity and support. Feel free to share your journey right along with me.
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